Today's post is fueled by the receipt of Samantha's psych (read: IQ) evaluation yesterday, in advance of tomorrow's eligibility meeting. Those of you who were around me on Facebook lastnight know what I'm talking about.
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
I had expected low.
I did not expect that low.
And, it seems, according to the report, that Samantha, while off to a sluggish start, became a willing participant for the psychologist.
So, how to view these results?
Big picture NEWS FLASH!!!!
I don't have to.
The results do not matter in the grand scheme of things.
The question is not so much how to view the results, but do I have the FORTITUDE to view them *objectively* and move on.
That's what I'm doing. Tomorrow's meeting is not about the score. (Well, I suppose it could be if she somehow scored as a genius - we may lose eligibility if that were the case!) It's strictly about eligibility. We could not previously find her eligible under any of the available categories if she did not have the psych testing. She has to change her label from DD (Developmental Delay) to something else by the time she turns 7. Don't know why, but that's just the way it is (oh, how I hate saying something like that - I'm taught to question things, but this one, as far as I know, cannot be questioned). To get the ID (Intellectual Delay) label, which best fits her, we needed the testing. Once we get the ID label, we will make it clear we don't like the wording, and will ask for Child With a Disability, something a bit more palatable, something that will force anyone in Sammi's educational future to look further into her file before making judgements.
So I take a deep breath, gather the strength to keep my mouth shut about the test results at tomorrow's meeting because, again, that's really not what that meeting is about. It's just a means to an end. The participants in tomorrow's meeting are not against us, and are looking out for Sammi's best interest. I know that. And once the end result is achieved, we move on, and don't look back. Apparently the IQ testing is an option every 3 years going forward, not a requirement. An option that we may choose to do, if we feel something may need to be changed, or if we feel we need some more accurate answers than we have just received.
And for now, I gain strength from the fact that those test results are not an accurate gauge of who Sammi is, of what she is capable. The people who surround her every day, us, her teachers, her friends, all know better. A friend posted this for me on Facebook lastnight.
It speaks volumes.
|(okay, so don't look at the fact that there's no apostrophe in the 3rd "its" - I tend to be a bit anal-retentive about that kind of thing!)|